Palhaço Pudim was a character created in the 2010s, who, in addition to providing immense happiness and personal fulfillment, was also a social work that he carried out in marginalized communities in various regions of Brazil. Pudim was the joy that climbed the hills and favelas, and traveled through territories of extreme poverty and precariousness, bringing a little joy to children in situations of extreme social vulnerability. This scenario starts to change with my gender transition. Keyla and Pudim can no longer co-exist in the ludic and fantastic universe managed and controlled by cisgenderism. As well as cisgenderism, the clown is also an incarnate fiction.